The First Time God Spoke To Me

Well, okay, I know this wasn't the first time, but I seriously knew it in my mind that it was Him speaking to me.
I'm glad the Lord gave all men conscience: the inner sense of what is right and wrong.
Our God is a righteous God, He does what is right because it is right.
And we should follow that.

Anyway, I was rambling. On to the main point!

My worst fear is having a world without God. Literally, without His presence; or angels to spiritually protect us. I know that's impossible, because one attribute of God is omnipresence.

But in theory, a world without God is a world full of Satan and sin.
Of course it already is, but it would be way worse. Demons.
Yes, through the web of my worst fear, demons are the main string.

I started to watch a show on Netflix called "The Haunted". This show focused on animals and how they were affected by the paranormal. It was cool at first and all, because it gave me chill thrills... but as the show progressed, it started to actually scare me. My mind would go further than I wanted it to, imaging "what if's" and actual experiences I've heard of.
I stopped watching it. Yet I still wanted the chill thrills... so I started watching another show called "Paranormal" or something... It had to do more with humans. Little kids, average families, etc.
After like, five episodes I abruptly stopped in the middle of one and just discontinued the show. It was too scary.

The Bible says:
"Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you." -Philippians 4:8-9
And there is also this amazing website, I just had to read the whole thing!
http://www.angelfire.com/mi/dinosaurs/ghosts.html
I seriously recommend to take a look! You can get a way better understanding of things.


Anyway, we should never open ourselves up to obviously demonic things. Even though the shows are just 'remakes' of what has actually happened, it's still real.


So one night (months after watching those shows) I'm thinking about the "what if's" again, and I'm arguing with myself on not to think about it.
Whenever something like this comes up, my legs get weak and I feel weak. That's the same feeling as being scared.


All of a sudden, I hear: "Do not be afraid."


Isaiah 41:10
"Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."

So my eyes widen, and I'm thinking... Praise the Lord! I have heard His voice!
Of course I was talking to God, so I would've said that in second person.
NO, I did not hear it from outside of my body. It was not as if someone whispered into my ear or said it across the room.
I truly believe that God had said this to me. "Do not be afraid."
Whenever I think about this, I smile and thank the Lord that my worst fear will not come true.

I heard it as though it were in my mind, but I knew I it wasn't my thought.
It was God telling me, DO NOT BE AFRAID, FOR I AM WITH YOU.

I always have mental battles with myself. I have divided my mind into three 'people':
The good one, the bad one, and the neutral one.
The angel, the demon, the human. (The human being pulled one way by evil temptation and what is truly right.)
But it comes down to this: My soul and my human heart.
I'm sure if you think about that phrase, you will understand that 'my soul' is what I long to be, which is everything good in Jesus. And 'my human heart', what my flesh longs for; sex before marriage, homosexuality, stealing, lying, cheating, anger, etc.

Numbers 14:18 (and many other passages)
"The Lord is slow to anger, abounding in love and forgiving sin and rebellion."
Again, we should strive our best to be like Him.
 Matthew 5:30 (one of my favourite verses)
"And if thy right hand offend thee, cut it off, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for thee that one of thy members should perish, and not that thy whole body should be cast into hell."

I know this wasn't the "first time" God has spoken to me, but in that moment, I was sure it was Him.